My First Thoughts When I Wake

(eyes open)

Yet another day begins, I start off with a sigh
already feeling aches and pain, makes me wish I'd just die.

(eyes close)

I lack the motivation, to continue life this way
unfortunate I have no choice, this burden's here to stay.

(eyes open)

I can't just lay here wallowing, my battle rages on
this fight, the reason, I'm still here, to greet another dawn.

(eyes close)

Rivers of tears I feel inside, my heartache is to blame
Like mighty dams that hold back floods, my eyelids do the same.

(eyes open)

Rank and bitter air I tatse, drawn in on each new breath
weakened spirit still strong of heart, I'll fight now to the death!

Alfie P. 6/6/08