the slightest contact
makes a small impact on me,
but the greatest mark

easy to allow
revolting and yet tempting
should I let myself?

first, was not love but
order of elimination

second, taken as
naive anticipation

third, as simple as
plain admiration

fourth, obviously
childlike contemplation

the hooped end of the needle
still pokes me

i keep thinking i am done.
that i am over him.
then a new wave comes.
and love again wins.

i wonder if i pray
then will god relieve me?
but i try every day
and all he's done is deceive me.

if i hate you
or if i love you
i really can't decide.
being in your presence
makes me powerful
and frightful
somehow at the same time.
i could throw you in a fire
and know it'd do me good.
but the fire within is burning
hungry for a taste
and for somewhere to hide.

Love rarely changes in one passing thought.
Love changes in the lack of passing thought
and then realizing this fact.
Minds are rarely altered from one new idea.

I cannot cry.
I wish I could.
I tried.
I can't.
I want to.

It will never be the same.
I said it but once
and you never looked at me
so tame.
You did understand
that you would never be the one
to blame.
It was at that moment

The walls have caved in.
Slowly,
the floor is unstable
and i start
falling through.
Slowly,
my stomach flops
and my sight and sound
are lost.
Swiftly,
my breath quickens
and panic
has stricken.
The walls have caved in.

looking up,
i feel like
god.
or am i
committing
fraud?
looking up,
i am quite
small.
or is it
they who are
tall?
looking up,
they let me
ask.
or do i
just come to
bask?

Negative and negative
is positive.
To feel like crap with another
is relative.

To watch the smile disappear
is as a skewer to my heart.
When I saw the moment before,
so exalting from the start.
The clouds parted momentarily
But the light lacked need to shine.

Oh, how I loathe health class,
not that I hate health.
They tell me not to commit suicide.
Sure, THAT is going to help.
They tell me not to have sex,
and force me to state why.

Your story is shaping my views,
but i haven't decided how.
This apprehension of how to act
and of what they will say
is causing the shakes.

What you have told me,