Abandoned & Denied

Can you hear me? Can you see me?
Are you near me?
Can you find me in the darkness?

I gave you my soul, my passion,
My submission, my love,
To you I have all given,
And now this is how you repay me,
Denied me and betrayed me,

Not long ago was I victorious at heart,
In all that I saw and did,
You shed more light into my world,
Introduced me happiness,
I never once thought existed,

Yet it was not so long ago,
That you’ve taken all those away,
Cunningly creep into the night,
Taking away my light,

A light I have so long protected,
Robbing me of any logic,
Causing my insanity,

I keep searching for your face,
In an endless crowd,
Seeing glimpes of you here and there,
I run towards it,
Only to realize that I,
Am chasing an illusion,

An illusion that was once yours,
My dreams are filled with emptiness,
And this never-ending nightmare,

You’ve vanished from my conscious mind,
Gone from all my nights,
You are but a ghost in my past,
A ghost in my memory,
A ghost that seems to haunt me,
When I am in my weakest point,
I crawl on the bedside,
So afraid in the darkness,

You we’re my friend and teacher,
You we’re my lover,
You we’re whom I gave my whole heart to,

But you left me in the darkness,
You left me in a room with creatures,
Slowly consuming all that is my sanity,

How could you do this to me?
How could you live your life,
Knowing that you’ve abandoned me,
How could you leave me in a darkened place,
And lock the doors?

Do you wish to let me die of this madness?
I trusted you,
To protect and take care of me,

Hatred I’ve willfully avoided,
Now clouds my very judgement,
Selfish as you are,
Never wanting to stop,
Encouraging darkness to continue,
Lurking it all away,

Once said you we’re my darkness,
And I, was your light,
Together we we’re inseparable,
You once instilled in me,
That not heaven nor earth,
Not the clouds in the sky,
Not the sun and the moon,
Not even the Universe itself,
Can put an end to what we both feel,
But again, you’ve proven me so wrong,

Remembering only when you needed me,
Never did you love me like you claim,
Never did you want me in your embrace,

Depleting all my happiness,
Abusing all my patience,
Leaving me devastated all eternity,
You are but a selfish soul,
Drifting in the shores of my existence,

I plead for this to stop,
Please if someone can hear me,
If someone can see my suffering,
I beg you all, to make it stop,

Save me from this madness,
I want so much,
For my soul to breathe,

I want so much,
For my heart to be released,
Released from this imprisonment,
Imprisonment from a man who tricked me,
Made me believe the light in the end of the tunnel,

I need to be free,
From the hatred you’ve caused,
Beginning to accept,
Of not being strong enough to face it,
Losing all courage to ascend the arduous climb,
I long to see the light,
Needing to return to the path,
I derailed from due to you,

You are a ghost of my past,
A memory I need to bury,
A book that needs an ending,
A song that needs tuning,

You’ve broken my into pieces,
Left me to put it all together,
But I cannot,
I cannot fix what you have broken,
Nor can I replace what was once whole,

I wish I never loved you,
I wish all this was a only but a bad dream,
Which I will soon be awake from,
But no, it is as real as I dread it to be,

This is how my story is written,
This is how my sequel is ending,
Ruined and unjust,
Dark and frightening,
Abandoned and denied,